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| So..... college is kicking my ass right now =[[[[. And, it's gonna kick me some more next year when I have to take all sciences (Pharmacology, Pathophysiology, Microbiology, Nutrition, Human Anatomy & Physiology) to catch up with my prerequisites for nursing. Shit, damn, and motherfuck! First semester was horribleeeee! Human Anatomy & Physiology killed me. It totally ruined my GPA too. I ended up dropping out of it second sem, so I'm taking it easy now sooo I'm not doing too bad at the moment. But, I'm eventually going back to Biology next year .. and I'm scared. Some of my friends already gave up on nursing, and I'm thinking of it too, but some part of me just won't quit. I won't quit! I'm not a quitter! *cough* I'm gonna be juggling work, school, clubs, and volunteer work next year and I hope.... I come out of it alive. It's basically suicide =]
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| well... it's exactly 12:31 am right now and I'm still not sleepy. My
eyes feel like they want to close but I'm just not tired for some
reason. Maybe I had too much sleep this morning, considering how I've
been doing something everyday... almost. But, I can't believe summer is
going by so fast, and it's already been a month since I graduated. but
it's like one day closer to when my friends leave. oh no! but they
can't really stay here forever. I know I don't but I don't really have
a choice at the moment. But anyways, that still doesn't really solve
why I'm not tired at all. There's really nothing to do online anymore
but I keep finding myself on the computer for hours. I guess I'm still
hyped up over my new laptop. Feels like I want to do everything on
it... I guess I just want to get used to it. I AM giving my old
computer to my brother anyways and I'll kinda miss it.
Also, my mom bought me a new phone just the other week and I love it.
It was quite expensive though but I'll pay my mom back for it...
eventually. When I get a job. Ha. My dad and my brother also got phones
since we got free ones when my mom bought me my phone. My brother is
lucky because my mom never really let me have a cell phone that young.
She kept telling me that I couldn't have a phone when I was 15 ish
because Cec didn't really get one when she was that age either. I hated
it when my mom kept comparing me to others, or she wouldn't let me do
something or have something just because my cousin didn't have it. Or
something like that. anyways. whatever. I love my phone. I originally
wanted a Chocolate because it came in a pink color, and everyone knows
that I LOVE pink. But the salesman persuaded me to get this gold
Samsumg that could flip open in two different ways, and it also had a
keypad. Lately, Clarissa and I have been texting each other nonstop
just because we're both verizon. Haha. I guess it's better than talking
on the phone I suppose. It can also serve as an mp3 player so that's
pretty cool. I've been wanting an iPod just because I wanted something
to listen to on my way to school. but, now I really don't have to get
it and I just saved myself a whole lot of money.
Hmm.. today, my brother and I randomly went to town just to get mint
chocolate chip ice cream because I was craving it. I was gonna go play
tennis with Clarissa but we had a change of plan because she needed to
help her mom with something. After I got home, Vincent sent me a text
and asked if I wanted to watch The Exorcist with him and Clarissa. So,
I was like okay, why not, coz I had nothing to do anyway. The three of
us went over to his grandma's place and the movie was so.. sick. Haha.
It wasn't really that bad at all. Although, those scenes of the little
girl will probably give me nightmares for a while. Imagine if we had to
watch it at night. Frick, I wouldn't even want to go drop Clarissa off.
Haha.. anyways, this is getting lengthy. I'm just trying to get myself
tired so I can go to sleep. But I think I'm just scared to sleep. blah.
hmmm. Oh yeah, Harry Potter and OOTP is coming out soon and I can't
wait! none of my friends really wanna go watch it with me coz they
don't like Harry Potter apparently. Except Erenia, coz I know she likes
Harry Potter. Maybe we can go watch it this weekend. And, I can't wait
for the book either. I still haven't reserved myself a copy yet, but
I'll probably end up buying it at Costco since the books there never
run out. I hope no one spoils it for me. Which reminds me. I was
watching a video on youtube earlier of this guy who drives by Barnes
& Noble and spoils the fans. He drives past this girl and he goes
"Hey! Snape kills Dumbledore!" and the girl screams out
"nooooooooooooo! you bitch! you BITCH!" omg, I was cracking up so bad.
That was great. It was a mean thing to do, but great nonetheless. haha.
Anyways, I'm starting to ramble and this will never end if I keep
going. I guess I should just try to force myself to sleep. It is now
12:55. And I gotta wake up soon. blah! okay, shoots, I'm out.
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| shit son. it's been a year and a half! it's not like anybody reads this
shit anyway. haha, but omg, it's summer. can't believe my senior year
went by so fricken fast. I'm getting old! I also can't believe I'm 18.
that means I can watch porn now! but then that never really stopped me
before. just joke! sometimes I still think I'm 17 but oh well! and
bitchnigga, I'm 18 and I still don't have my license! that examiner
should be shot coz she fricken cancelled my road test twice. I have a
feeling she doesn't like me. well.......... I don't like her either.
she looks like a bitch. I don't think I'd wanna drive with her. I was
hoping for a better examiner, but whatever. what kinda ticks me off is
that I wasted my time going to driver's ed with some dumb woman who
can't teach for shit. I hope she gets fired soon because she's a
horrible driver. AND that stupid law where if you re-new your permit,
you can't take your road test till you hold out your 6 months is
stupid. I mean, doesn't it matter that I took driver's ed?? ahh
fuckers! stupid people these days. and this post is turning out to be a
rant. but who cares.
Adree's party was last night and I have to say that her party started
off really great. but as soon as they brought out the alcohol, I knew I
was going to have a miserable time. it might just be me, but I don't
know why they have to resort to drinking to have fun. I honestly don't
know why I'm highly against underage drinking, but I just am. I knew
that they were going to drink at this party but I held it off anyway
because I wanted to be there for Adree and Abe. I thought I could deal
with just watching people get drunk, but I just realized that I can't
stand it. lately, I've been pretty calm about everything, trying not to
get temperamental or anything. but if there's one thing that could
really set my mood off, it's drinking. but anyways, I ended up not
sleeping over coz I'm pretty sure I'd be the only sober one. it's fun
watching people get drunk at first, but it really is no fun after a
while. besides, they knew I wasn't into that kind of thing so I didn't
wanna be there to ruin their fun (but that didn't stop them) and I sure
didn't wanna sit there looking miserable. I was a really disappointed
that Kili couldn't make it. I would've had a lot of fun with her if she
came. but oh well, things already happened and I can't really change
it.
anyways, summer is going pretty chill for now I suppose. I'm just
trying to spend as much time with my friends before they all leave me
for college. I honestly don't know what I'm gonna do without them.
Arlene, Kimy, and Krystle will still be with me but I'm pretty sure
we'll go on our separate ways. it probably won't really work out with
everyone gone. I don't really wanna stay here for college, seeing how
Hilo is the most boring town ever, even though I barely go there. I
don't even wanna go to college period. a little bit of education is so
fricken expensive. anyway, I think I'm rambling on. it's almost 11:30
pm and I should go to bed. what I'm wondering about is why my mom isn't
home yet. huh. okay, shoots braddah ben. bye!
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| you ever have those days where you just want to kick and scream at something for no particular reason?
I like Stairway To Heaven. :) my favorite show.
I don't feel like going back to school. okay maybe just a little bit
coz I'm running out of things to do at home. I'm just not up to doing
homework again. blah. okay bye
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